Wednesday, July 1, 2015

DIARY PAGE 1st JULY

THIS EARLY MORNING WAS ALSO THE CASE I DIDN'T SLEEP.
WAS CONTINUOUSLY THINKING ABOUT HER AND WAS TWEETING.
EVEN MYSELF WAS NOT ABLE TO MAKE ME CONSOLE THE HOODWINK AND WAS CONTINUOULY SHOUTING LOUDLY THAT YES SHE LOVES U.
BUT I AM THAT TOO SHRED THAT I WILL BE ABLE TO GET THE DECEIVE AND ASSUME IT TO BE TRUE.
AFTER A RELAX SEVEN DAY,TODAY AGAIN,AS SHE WAS IN  THE TOWN,
I STARTED REMEMBERING HER AND CONTEMPLATED ABOUT HER AURA.
THIS WAS NOT THE CASE WHEN SHE STRANDED ME AND WENT TO MANALI FOR A TRIP.
SERIOUSLY EVERYTHING IS GOING OPPOSITE.
I THINK THE CHANGES IN ME ARE REFLECTING THE OUTWARD FORCE FROM HER PLIGHT MEMORY.
CERTAIN THING HAVE CHANGED IN THESE SEVEN DAYS AS MY CONCEPT OF IF I WOULD BE THE LAST BOY LEFT IN THIS WORLD,THEN ALSO SHE WILL NOT ACCEPT ME HAVE GROWN A LOT.
SO THE SPUR IS GOOD IF IT MAINTAINED AND I AM ASCERTAIN ABOUT IT.
TODAY MOST PROBABLY,I WILL MET HER OR WILL ABLE GAZE HER FOR A SECOND PERHAPS.
NOTHING HAVE GONE MY WAYS AND I AM LEFT ALL ALONE REBUKING TO MYSELF ONLY.
I HAVE NEVER THOUGHT OF HER AS A CHATTEL AND ONLY GOD KNOWS THAT EVEN IF I WOULD HAVE BEEN IN HER,THEN ALSO I HAVE THOUGHT OF HER AS MY CHATTEL.
ONLY GOD KNOWS THAT I AM NOT A RETROGRADE OR PAROCHIALISM MENTALITY PERSON.
NOW I WANT THAT I HAVE BEEN IN LOVE FOR A LONG AND TRANSFORMATION FOR BEING A OPTIMISTIC TO A NON OPTIMISTIC PERSON IS DIFFCULT BUT STILL THE LIFE LEFT IN ME IS OPTIMISTIC WHICH I WANT TO USED IN SPUR IN FUTURE DAYS.
SO THE TARGET I WANT IS TO GET OUT MYSELF FROM HER SOFT MEMORIES.
I WANT TO MITIGATE THE SITUATION WHICH HAS LEFT ME ABLAZE IN THIS WHOLE WORLD AND THAT TOO ALL ALONE.
AND I KNOW THAT IT IS A RIGMAROLE AND IF WILL SUCCEDD,IT WILL BE THE MOST AMAZING TASK I HAVE EVER DONE.
I WANT A PLAUSIBLE RESULT FROM THIS AS THE REPRIMAND AND ADONITION ARE NOT ONCE BUT IT HAS CROSSED THOUSAND TIMES NOT FROM HER BUT FROM ME AND FOR SURE IT HAS DWINDLED ME.

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